I'm the one who broke my family up, so I'm probably not qualified to talk about keeping one together, but. I'm sorry it's hitting you like this. Just because mine sucks doesn't mean all families have to.
I know you're keeping to yourself more lately, and god knows I'm not gonna tell you how to talk about stuff, but I'm here right now, in private, if you want to get anything off your chest. Anything you say dies with me.
[It's hard when they're both the type of people to deflect concerns about their own lives by honing in on a problem with someone else's. Jasmine can see that's what she's doing, and it makes her frown a little bit, her initial instinct being, of course, to clam up.]
You don't need the burden of my worries while you're already dealing with your experiences.
Whatever happened, I can't help but feel I was simply in way over my head.
[ha. yeah. she knows what Jasmine's doing. shouldn't be a surprise at this point. Anna's whole deal is bottling herself up until it explodes and the two things look surprisingly similar in the early stages! just ask the lucky Geteilt who got her most recent emotional explosion.]
Yeah. That one's damn near universal. We've all got shit we trick ourselves into thinking we know how to handle right up until we figure out we don't.
There's a lot of stuff about the Geteilts that I don't know and I don't get to know, and I'm fine with that. I think you can bring your family back together if that's what you want, but I don't think you can do it alone. If you're all going through the same stuff, it makes sense to me that you should probably go through it together.
On the other hand, asking any other human being on the face of the planet for help is literally fucking impossible.
This is one of those times where I can only agree with you, really. [It is impossible to ask others for help. She wonders if that's why the other version of herself needed a brother, another-her, instead of anyone already living she could trust with those sorts of things.]
Most of us aren't exactly known for opening up. But Rose and I are the worst about it, no doubt. Maybe I got it from her. How troubling.
For the longest time, I thought I honestly hated her for what she did to us.
Being a sarcastic piece of shit is what I do. Especially in times like these. But yeah, I'll try to tone it down. I get it.
Not a huge fan of all this high-stakes crap. Didn't any of these other girls go to the store or take a long shower or something? But no, it's all "murder other robots who look like humans" and "here's a flower growing inside your body and probably feeding on you" and shit like that.
God. We keep talking like this and I'm gonna end up drunk texting her one night.
I'd love to remember something as mundane as going on a shopping trip. But I wonder if those are the kinds of things girls fighting for liberation or growing flowers from their eye get to experience in life. At least nothing else has happened with that flower.
[Womp womp.]
If you do, it's likely she'll be drunk as well, so you wouldn't be the only one.
That was probably uncalled for. [Given that they were just talking about how Rose didn't deserve some of the things they'd put them through...Jasmine, for once, feels a little pang for taking her usual approach.]
Listen, Jasmine, she's going through way more than I am and I'm struggling not to get fucked up every other night and go to bed high or drunk or both.
[she's trying not to think about how easily that came out. she's pretty bad at this keeping to herself thing sometimes.]
Maybe she thinks she can starve the flower to death if she treats her body like shit. Maybe she's just worse off than either of us knows. Either way I'd be shocked if she weren't drinking.
I can try to talk to her about it if you're worried.
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I know you're keeping to yourself more lately, and god knows I'm not gonna tell you how to talk about stuff, but I'm here right now, in private, if you want to get anything off your chest. Anything you say dies with me.
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You don't need the burden of my worries while you're already dealing with your experiences.
Whatever happened, I can't help but feel I was simply in way over my head.
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Yeah. That one's damn near universal. We've all got shit we trick ourselves into thinking we know how to handle right up until we figure out we don't.
There's a lot of stuff about the Geteilts that I don't know and I don't get to know, and I'm fine with that. I think you can bring your family back together if that's what you want, but I don't think you can do it alone. If you're all going through the same stuff, it makes sense to me that you should probably go through it together.
On the other hand, asking any other human being on the face of the planet for help is literally fucking impossible.
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Most of us aren't exactly known for opening up. But Rose and I are the worst about it, no doubt. Maybe I got it from her. How troubling.
For the longest time, I thought I honestly hated her for what she did to us.
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Can't remember if I've told her that yet.
What made you change your mind? Just time? You don't have to answer.
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I suppose I finally realized exactly what that kind of hate feels like.
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I won't lie, Jasmine. That's one of the scarier answers you could've given.
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[But making amends with Rose...is more difficult, for the reasons spread out across the rest of their conversation.]
I'm sorry. If I frightened you with my answer.
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It's fine, by the way. Just not used to hearing "I don't actually hate her because I learned about a stronger emotion than hate that I call hate two".
Paraphrasing.
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Did it really sound like that? I suppose that's what it is, though I might not be so glib about it. When the stakes are higher, the hate is stronger.
You're right, it would be easier. But both things...both make us miss being younger, a little more innocent, a little more ignorant.
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Not a huge fan of all this high-stakes crap. Didn't any of these other girls go to the store or take a long shower or something? But no, it's all "murder other robots who look like humans" and "here's a flower growing inside your body and probably feeding on you" and shit like that.
God. We keep talking like this and I'm gonna end up drunk texting her one night.
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[Womp womp.]
If you do, it's likely she'll be drunk as well, so you wouldn't be the only one.
That was probably uncalled for. [Given that they were just talking about how Rose didn't deserve some of the things they'd put them through...Jasmine, for once, feels a little pang for taking her usual approach.]
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[she's trying not to think about how easily that came out. she's pretty bad at this keeping to herself thing sometimes.]
Maybe she thinks she can starve the flower to death if she treats her body like shit. Maybe she's just worse off than either of us knows. Either way I'd be shocked if she weren't drinking.
I can try to talk to her about it if you're worried.